Little Blue Pills

Nothing is more terrifying then a warlord with a hard-on

Merry Christmas

I'm visiting my family in SoCal for the holidays, but i had to take a moment to share this with you.



I'm off to bed team. Santa comes early, and i just took a handful of sleeping pills...

Merry Christmas everybody!

Too Soon?

My friend Allan brought this to my attention, is there any better way to start the day? I love my friends.

Inching Tword the Apocalypse

Chaos is tearing through North Western Pakistan where car bombs have killed least 18 people and wounded another 80 at the bazaar in Kissa Kahani, or Street of the Storytellers, in the Pakistani city of Peshawar, and another has killed at least six in Kalaya, the main town in Orakzai. It is not yet clear who is behind the attacks (though they seem aimed at Shia Muslims).

This is how the World Ends people. Not with a whimper, but with a Bang.

The Funniest Thing I've Seen All Day

I just saw this on Kieth Olbermann.

See more Jack Black videos at Funny or Die

Giving Thanks

Today is the 30th anniversary of the assassinations of Harvey Milk and George Mascone. We wouldn't be where were are now if not for Harvey Milks life or his martyrdom. Who would we be if there had never been a Harvey Milk?

The boys and i are gonna go see the movie tonight at the Castro Theater. I hope to see you there.

It's Always Sunny In Bridgeport

From Towleroad:

Same-sex couples in Connecticut expect to begin marrying today after a court hearing which begins in about an hour.

Conn_2"Superior Court Judge Jonathan Silbert has scheduled a hearing at 9:15 a.m. Wednesday in New Haven to enter the final judgment in the case that allows same-sex marriages in Connecticut. Once the hearing ends, couples can pick up marriage license forms at town and city clerk's offices. It's unclear how many couples will get married. The state public health department says 2,032 civil union licenses were issued in Connecticut between October 2005 and July 2008. The Connecticut Supreme Court ruled Oct. 10 that same-sex couples have the right to wed rather than accept a civil union law. Only Connecticut and Massachusetts have legalized gay marriage. The unions were legal in California until voters narrowly passed a ban last week. At least three lawsuits ask that state's Supreme Court to overturn the vote."

In last week's election, voters rejected a proposed Constitutional Convention that might have amended the state's constitution to banish marriage equality.

Potential AIDS Cure?

Good news from two fronts of the AIDS War: New Scientist is reporting thats doctors in the UK have trained T-cells to hunt for HIV.

Meanwhile a German doctor may have stumbled across a cure(!) while treating a lukemia.

Never Blend In

Last night I went to the People's Premire of Gus Van Sant's 'Milk' movie and i can only begin to describe how moving, how INSPIRING it is.

There is an eerie resonance between to events of the movie and the recent events of gay history, as if they are Bizaro World reflections of one another. Except this time our movement lacked organization. This time our movement had no leadership.

But this time our movement has allies.

I was touched to come home last night to find that two political commentators, both of whom i respect greatly, had made statements of support and solidarity with the cause of LGBT rights. The first, and the one i'm sure will garner the most attention, was Kieth Olbermann's:



Mr. Olbermann, Thank You! Your powerful words and the clear passion with which you spoke them have earned you my eternal respect and gratitude.

The second pundit to show solidarity with the Gay Movement was Benjamin Wachs from the SF Weekly. Mr. Wachs implores us not to start a 'holy war,' He says that their are clear paths to victory and the all involve 'outreach.' And i agree. Outreach to the black and latino communities, exposing them to our humanity, is the only way we can get Prop 8. reversed.

But it is not enough. For too long the agents of hate have sallied forth from whitewashed walls and brick steeples to do violence to our community. For too long have have these hate-mongers clothed themselves in self-righteousness as they stood on pulpits and behind podiums preaching to their flocks that MY PEOPLE are monsters, are MOLESTERS! PERVERTS undeserving of the samebasicrights and considerations as everybody else.

Fuck that. I'm not going to turn the other cheek anymore. We need to stop playing defence with our own rights and lives. We need to take the fight to the enemy. To every priest and pastor and two-bit politician that would whip his congregation into a frenzy by pointing out the gay boogieman lurking in every school and on every street, i say that we will not take it anymore. We will fight you. We will expose you for what you are. WE WILL DEFEND OUR SELVES.

If we don't they are just going to keep coming.

10,000 Queers March

Tonight a massive rally marched in protest from Silver Lake to Hollywood and Highland in what the local news channels are calling the biggest protest yet.

Of Cource You Know, This Means War

From Towleroad:
A petition drive has begun to the IRS to strip the Mormon church of its tax exempt status:

"Section 501(c)(3) describes corporations, and any community chest, fund, or foundation, organized and operated exclusively for religious, charitable, scientific, testing for public safety, literacy, or educational purposes, or to foster national or international amateur sports competition (but only if no part of its activities involve the provision of athletic facilities or equipment), or for the prevention of cruelty to children or animals, no part of the net earnings of which inures to the benefit of any private shareholder or individual, no substantial part of the activities of which is carrying on propaganda, or otherwise attempting, to influence legislation (except as otherwise provided in section (h)), and which does not participate in, or intervene in (including the publishing or distribution of statements), any political campaign on behalf of (or in opposition to) any candidate for public office."

Read and sign THIS PETITION

Mormons Stole Our Rights [Official Sight]

Morning PROTEST!

Three words: Faggots. Are. ANGRY!



I've never seen my fellow gay this... Alive! We've tasted true equality and we aren't going to let go of it. Not this time.

The Fight Isn't Over

As i type these words Pollo Del Mar is leading a traffic blocking rally at 18th and Castro. I have to admit that I was a little bit crushed that Prop. 8 passed. I've been angry for days. But seeing everybody gathered together, the fire in their eyes, the passion in their voices...

This is not the end.

President Obama

Morning Cartoons

Morning Cartoons

Prop 8:

Between 30% and 40% of the $25.5 million in donations raised as of last week by the "Yes(on 8)" campaign has come from the Utah-based Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, supporters of the measure say.


Mormon's believe hot man on man action is evil. Ever wonder what else they believe?...

Morning Cartoons(ish)

This morning's offering is fromthe totally awesome Sissyboy, an artist's collective from Portland. I think they might be defunct as their website (www.sissyboypdx.com) is up for grabs.

Blood Pact

If you know me then you are probably aware that Halloween is pretty much my all time favorite holiday. And if you don't know me... well i guess now you know. Anyway, I'm proud to announce that HomoChic is hosting a bash at the SOMArts Center and it is going to be A TIME. Costumes, performances, faggotry, the WORKS.

All of the relevant information is below. I'll see you there.

Morning Cartoons

along the lines of yesterday's cartoon. I've really been thinking about the lack of great leaders for my generation. Where are our Milks? Our Lennons? I know a bunch of you are going to say Hopey McChange-a-lot but I just don't think so.

Bah. Ignore me. Enjoy your cartoon.

30 Years Later

In observance of the 30th anniversary of the Milk/Muscone assassinations the SF Chron has released a whole gallery of pictures depicting the rise and fall of Harvey Milk.

Morning Cartoons

I think all the cold medication i'm taking is making me a little weepy. When i came across this clip over @ Towleroad this morning i cried all over my computer.

Yet More Morning Cartoons

Youtube keeps killing this clip (to the exclusion of the 30000 other 'Family Guy' Clips out there) so watch it while you can.

Like a Modern Day Hatsfield v/ McCoy

Via SFist...

Morning Cartoons

Something appropriately educational.

Unintended Consequences: It's The Law!

Since Rep. Michele Bachmann accused Sen. Obama of being a traitor to his nation and asked Chris Mathews to embark on a McCarthyist witch hunt on Hardball Friday, her Democratic opponent has raised around $650,000 in online contributions.

Looks like you've got your hands full at home Michele, the "leftists" will have to wait.

The People Who Run Our Country

The brittle lunatic oozing talking points and self-righteousness is Michele Bachmann, Congressperson representing Minnesota's 6th District.







Fuck. The 6th isn't the wilderness either, it's right outside St. Paul. I can't help but love Chris Mathews in moments like these, he is a ninja of punditry

The War at Home and Beyond

The internets are abuzz this morning with news about same sex marriage, though not all of it is good.

To begin with Portugal's Socialist led Parliament has rejected an call from two opposition parties (the Greens and the Left Bloc) to legalize same sex marriage.

Here in the Golden State a new poll is showing a shift in favor of taking away same sex couples right to marry.

It could have something to do with this new add by the 'yes on 8' people...


...because everyone knows you can catch gay from a kids book. (sigh)

But there is some good news, the Supreme Court of Connecticut today ruled that the state's same-sex civil union laws are discriminatory and that gay and lesbian couples now have the right to marry in that state. That's right team, we are full fledged human beings in THREE states of the Union. Yay?

Morning Cartoons

Go Read Dr. McNinja

Morn... er.... AFTERNOON Cartoons...

Jonathan Rosenberg's Goats is without a doubt my favorite webcomic. Usually focusing on the transdementional adventures of two inept alcoholics some of its regular caracters are currently watching their favorite movie franchise, "Good Hitler" Hilarity Ensues.

House of Salad Party

Tonight @ Kimo's

Chilidog 2 Year

Night before last was the two year anaversary of Chilidog @ the Transfer and let me tell you, it was a fucking Time.



Stanley Frank brought the beats that kept us on our feet(s).



Later Ambrosia and the Bearnstiens Rocked the House



So then Stanley fucked our shit up some more...



And everyone made new friends



... before Ambrosia took to the stage one last time...



But we could not Contain Her









The end of the night is kinda fuzzy, but i think a little girl named Carol Anne led us all into the Light



And that's all i remember.

Morning Cartoons

sweet, sweet justice.

Chilidog 2 Year @ the Transfer Tonight

Get your asses to the two year anniversary of Chilidog!

All you bitches know...

Morning Cartoons

Morn... er.... AFTERNOON Cartoons...

"wake up Carlie!"

Morning Cartoons

What happens when you remove Garfield from the comic that bares his name? Garfield Minus Garfield, a hilarious and heartbreaking tale of loneliness and meth addiction in suburban America.

Big Gay World

This week in international faggotry: Brazil's President Silva (known affectionately as 'Lula') came out in favor of same sex unions, saying "politicians who oppose same-sex unions and yet seek the votes of gay men and women during elections are 'hypocrites.'"

Meanwhile in Nepal this week a Lesbian woman has won her fight to be the first person recognized as "Third Sex" by Nepal's new Maoist led Republic.

Morning Cartoons

Comic Gold!

This almost makes me excited for four years of McCain/Palin... almost.


This is why i love comedy as an art form. When it is done right there is no swifter nor more elegant way to cut to the heart of an issue (in this case Governor Palin's faux feminism). I sure hope Hopey McChange-a-lot appreciates Tina Fey's (GENIUS!) re framing of the debate.

September 11

I found this on flickr just now, and I can't help thinking 'We are no safer then we were seven years ago,"

Happy(?) September 11th everyone, i hope you are all safe and with your loved ones.

You Gotte Give 'em Hope

I finally saw the 'Milk' trailer and i'm all chocked up right now.

Enjoy...

The Difference Between a Bull Dog and a Hockey Mom...

This woman is going to be President some day. Just wait and see.

Welcome Home

Good Morning San Francisco,

And to those of you, like me, newly returned from the Burning Man Festival, "Welcome Home."

If you couldn't make it out to Black Rock City this year let me tell you, it was Epic. Just Epic. But I'll tell you all about that later, after i sort out my thoughts and memories (and pictures). In the mean time lets talk about whats going on in the 'Default World,'

Firstly, right before i left Barack Obama picked Joe Biden to be his running mate, and Joe came out swinging.



Then came the Democratic Convention in Denver where Hillary Clinton gave a speech touting her own awesomeness...



And of course the Daily Show was there to call her on it.



Changey McHopes-a-lot formally accepted the Democratic nomination for the Presidancy...



...which was genuinely awesome.

And John McCain chose his running mate, Sarah Palin, the Governor of Alaska. An unusually astute choice for McCain whose only major drawback that i can see is that she used to be a member of the Alaskan Independence Party.

oh! and New Orleans was not destroyed for a second time, which is so nice i can't even joke about it.

Sigh... it's nice to be home.

It's a Gay Revolution

See you on the playa.

Life in Legos

I ran across this today on Wired, and i couldn't resist bring it to everyone's attention. I've loved Lego blocks ever since i was a wee one, and i'm a big believer that they are one of the best toys for children, ever. Following the instructions and building a pirate ship, or a space station, or a medieval castle, is a great confidence builder for a young kid, and once you've done that you can let your imagination run wild and build anything you can dream of.

Pelosi Protested in L.A.

Recently at an event @ American Jewish University in Los Angeles (to promote her new book) protesters gave our esteemed congressperson a hard time over her refusal to consider articles of impeachment.

With courageous leadership like that I can't imagine why congress only has a 9% approval rating.

BREAKING NEWS! Alan Colms has Spine!

The "discussion" got heated today on Fox News' Hannity and Colms when "liberal" commentator Alan Colms had the temerity to bring up John McCain's past infidelities.



The Extra fun part is when EVERYONE ignores Mr. Colms and continues to follow the Fox approved talking points (i.e. no one can trust John Edwards the cheater) except for Hannity who just sticks his fingers in his ears and repeats over and over again "John McCain was in a POW camp for five and a half years!" Gosh, i guess that makes it okay to cheat on your wife with a Beer Baroness.

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The Beatification of Harvey Milk

Yesterday the California State Senate declared May 22nd to be 'Harvey Milk Day' on a 22-13 party-line vote.

"Not one Republican voted for the bill, which also says the day shall have special significance in public school and other educational institutions and 'encourages those entities to conduct suitable commemorative exercises on that date.' Sen. Dave Cox (R-Fair Oaks) said his vote against the measure had nothing to do with who was involved. 'In school, we ought to concentrate on writing, reading and arithmetic,' he said, adding that the schools don’t need other requirements placed on them by the Legislature. The bill must return to the Assembly for concurrence on some minor amendments before it goes to the governor."

The bill's author, State Assemblyman Mark Leno, was quoted as saying "Both houses of our Legislature have now honored Harvey Milk’s important civil rights legacy, and I am hopeful the governor will sign this bill so that California officially recognizes the message of hope and pride his life inspired."

My friend Tas would tell me that this is empty and distracting, and legislatures have no business declaring any holidays at all, and should focus on more concrete legislation. but i can't help but feel all warm and fuzzy.

Loves It.

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"The End of Democracy in America"

One of the most important books i read as a kid was Ender's Game by Orson Scott Card. In case you haven't read it, Ender's Game is the story of a bright and sensitive young boy plucked from a life of torment and bullying at the hands of his classmates and his sadistic older brother to be trained as genocidal military commander. Despite his torturous youth and his brutal military education Ender grows up to be a man of peace and tolerance (after killing almost an entire race of aliens, but i digress).

For a bright and sensitive young fag who had enormous difficulty interacting with my peers this novel was a life-line to me. I was eleven, on the precipice of puberty and already the caste systems that genesis in middle school and crystallize in high school were becoming clear to me. What was also clear was the fact that intelligence and compassion would not not earn me a place on the upper tiers. I was lonely and alienated and then i discovered this amazing book and i realized i wasn't alone, there was a man out there who had grown up feeling as awkward and alienated as me and he had written this amazing book to let kids like me realize we could be accepted and understood. We could even be heroes.

Which i suppose is why Card's vitriolic attack in the Mormon Times, against not just same sex marriage but homosexuals as a whole, cuts me so fucking deeply. I don't think their is any worse feeling then to think you are understood and accepted only to realize not only are you rejected but you are actually reviled.

Afterelton.com does a great job of refuting Card's essay (which claims same-sex marriage will be the 'end of Democracy in America', equates same-sex marriage with violation of private property, and advocates the violent overthrow of any government that recognizes gay unions) with far more insight and mental dexterity then i think i could muster at the moment. This has been a rough day, and learning that one of my inspirations thinks of me and my people as less then human has been the bile icing on a slice of shit cake.

Thank you for Being a Friend

I'm sad to say Estelle Getty has passed away in her home on Hollywood Blvd. She was 87. It goes without saying that Ms. Getty and all of the Golden Girls had a huge impact on many of us, especially me. Golden Girls was one of (if not the) first American television program to deal with homosexuality, not in a one shot "very special" episode. But over and over again. Painting gays and lesbians as normal people looking for love and friendship.

I hope Heklina and Cookie Dough do another Golden Girls night...

Libby dole is a caricature of a human being.

I am going to be okay.

Things are a little bit better. I spoke with my mom this morning, and this evening. She is scared, but i think she understands that i am going to be okay (baring earthquake and heartbreak, and even then...).

I go back and forth with how personal i want this journal to be. On one hand i would love to be a straight (umm...) journalist, and only write about the news, current events, and the exploits of my peers. But when all i can think about is all the pain im in and i'm causing...

We'll see.

Done.

So I just told my mom about my HIV status, it went about as badly as it could have. I guess thats a lie, it could have been worse. But it was pretty bad.

I'm a Fucking Coward

I've been trying to drum up the guts to tell my mom my HIV status for about two weeks now, and i just can't fucking do it.

fuck.

'Help Me'

The BBC has obtained the first video of an actual interrogation at Guantanamo Bay. It depicts young Omar Khadr being asked about the events leading up to his capture. For those of you who have never heard of Omar Khadr he is a Canadian Citizen who was captured in Afghanistan in 2002 at the age of fifteen for allegedly throwing a grenade that killed a US soldier. It is six years later and Khadr (now 21) is still @ Guantanamo Bay. This past February the Pentagon accidentally released documents showing that although Khadr was present during the firefight, there was no other evidence that he had thrown the grenade. In fact, military officials had originally reported that another of the surviving militants had thrown the grenade just before being killed.

Mr. Khadr has been tortured, deprived of sleep, put in solitary confinement, and denied medical care.

Now you understand, they hate us for our freedom.

Who Has Less Abortions Than Homosexuals?

I saw this clip on my friend Regan Fox's personal blog and i had to share it with all you Mares. George Carlin passed on the 22nd of June and i think the world is a much diminished place. He was a personal hero of mine and of my late father. (oh wow! i just got REAL sad... watch the clip.)

Fuck You and Your Reformation

From the New Zealand Herald,

"Senior Church of England bishops have held secret talks with Vatican officials to discuss the crisis in the Anglican communion over homosexual priests and women bishops.

They met senior advisers of the Pope in an attempt to build closer ties with the Roman Catholic Church."

You have read that correctly, there are Anglican Bishops who would rather hang out with child molesters than chicks and queers.

If you don't know the history behind the original Catholic/Anglican split i'll let Eddie Izzard explain it to you.

Happy Birthday America!

Sweet Angry God. Pride was a week ago and i am just now starting to feel like a human being again. The Burning Mary/HomoChic party friday was a HUGE success. If i were the type to brag i might say that it was The Party of the Weekend. I might say that anyway because it is the only event i have real clear memories of (thank you alcohol!) I spent monday laying around my apartment praying for death, and tuesday i was as stoned as humanly possible while cleaning the epic devastation that my living space had become. You'd think with all the free time i've had this week i might have spent some of it writing, but clearly that didn't happen. I really have to learn the knack of writing while drunk/hungover or this blog... er... 'cultural journal' is never gonna get off the ground. But i digress.

Pride is over. The time has come for Independence Day! You have no clue how much i love the 4th of July. I love hot dogs on toasted buns, loaded down with ketchup and relish. I love fireworks filling the skies above me with light and sound and magic. I even love to sing 'The Star Spangled Banner.' I love America.

I am a Patriot.

I know that might catch some of you off guard. It isn't exactly 'cool' for a man of my generation, raised on slacker movies and other hallmarks of the early 90's. I am fully aware of Samuel Johnson's great quote, "Patriotism is the last refuge of a scoundrel." I know that our government has used our military to invade sovereign nations and prop up dictators. I know that our corporations steal the resources and indigenous wisdom of peoples all over the word so we here can have bigger cars and newer pharmaceuticals. We are greedy and fat and stupid and blah blah blah.

For all of our flaws we are the the first nation founded not on a clan tie or some king's conquest, but on an Ideal. We are the only country in the world built on the idea that we can all be Happy and Free.

And even if the execution leaves something to be desired, the Ideal and Intent are worth loving.

"The New Gay Mafia Collective"

I sit here this morning with my shit completely flipped. Partially because Frankie Sharp and the DJ Bearded Lady had me dancing until security dragged my ass out of the Transfer last night (and i haven't had my fucking coffee) but mostly because The Guardian released it's annual list of influential San Francisco Queers. and who should be topping that list but the Brothers Herrera, and HomoChic. The piece is brief, but very sexy.

"Yes, they're gay brothers, which is, like, totally hot. But even if they weren't related, their individual artistic creations would have us on the hook. Heads of HomoChic (www.homochic.com), the new gay mafia collective that combines gallery shows, fashion design, and nightlife craziness into mind boggling events, they're inspiring the latest generation to revel in its scandalous past. Leo's photography mixes porn with historical reference to dizzying, stimulating effect. Allan's costuming and styling brings bathhouse and backroom gay culture to light. Currently the Chihuahua, Mexico-born siblings have pieces in the queer Latino "Maria" show at Galería De La Raza. Leo features pants-raising boy-pics and a video installation centered on Harvey Milk. Allan, whose Money Shots underwear line graces many an alternaqueer's backside, displays a chandelier made of 2,000 pink condoms."

If you know Leo and Allan then you know they are the hardest working men in all of Faggotry. They both some how manage to bring the cows home just about every night and still manage to be completely on top of their shit at all times. I am immensely proud of them both, and i can't think of anyone more deserving... except perhaps tireless AIDS crusader (and personal friend) Hunter Hargraves, and he is featured too! Both for his work as head of Stop AIDS and for his DJing and Drag Performances. Clearly i am lucky to have such friends and if i wasn't so fucking hungover i'd inflate their egos for another few paragraphs (they deserve it) but instead i think i'm gonna grab a quick role in the hay with my boyfriend before work.

See you kids at the Bubble Lounge Tonight.

Celebrating Stonewall

Fuck, kids. It's only tuesday morning and pride week is already kicking my ass. Last night of cource was (the possibly last ever) MoneyShot Mondays @ Jet. Wherein I participated in the (100 dollar prized) 'Hairiest Bush Contest.' Sadly i didn't win. Before that i spent most of the afternoon playing pornographer for two of the dead-sexiest boys i know. They are starting a naked hose cleaning service and they needed sexy pics for their website... i am very lucky.

But you good folks don't want to hear about my wacky miss-adventures. You all would like to know all the best places to sow those wild oats this week. So here it is: your official HomoChic San Francisco Pride Agenda:

We start the festivities tonight @ seven @ A Different Light Bookstore in the Castro where the indomitable Brontez of Gravy Train fame will be reading from the new issue of his hypersexy zine, Fag School.


After that head over to the Transfer @ Church and Market for Chilidog, where i will attempt not to drink myself stupid. (wish me luck!)


Wednesday from 7-9 is the IDA benefit @ the Bubble Lounge up in North Beach. (i'd link to their website but it hasn't been updated since Al Gore invented the Internet. Boylesque will be performing and that is a show that is always worth seeing. there might be an orgy or something afterwards. not sure yet.

Thursday is the only day all week i get to sleep.

Things really get rolling Friday night with Sweet Beast

(which has in my opinion the best fucking flier all year)
and then get your ass over to the Burning Marys Burning Man fund raiser party.

Half price w/ costums (underwear counts as a costume!) drinks all night, sexy beats, sexy boys, sexy fun.

Pink Saturday will find you at Afterglow where all the boys you were grinding up against @ Mary will be giving you head.


And sunday after the parade and the festival you simply MUST go to Juanita More's Pool Party at the Phoenix Hotel. It's a San Francisco tradition.


I'm gonna go take a nap before work.

clearly i will need my rest.